Stuck in a Loop?

Strange, right? How sometimes all you want is to get back on track—the track where you were once productive and doing everything, but now, you're just stuck in some loop where you're not even sure what's happening. The more you try to understand it, the more it feels like it's all in vain. By the end of the day, you feel guilty, and the fact that you can’t do much to help yourself makes you doubt whether you’ll ever come out of this loop again.

And then suddenly, you remind yourself, “This too shall pass.” But that reflection hits hard. You wonder, "What caused this to happen? How did I even get here? How did I end up in this situation?"
What changed?
Achaanak kya hua?

I used to be so mindful and productive, and now I’m just overwhelmed. All of this only makes me feel worse about my situation.

Since the start of January 2025, I’ve been going through this phase. I don’t know what’s going on in my life; it’s like it’s just moving forward without any agenda or pre-planning. I don’t even know what I’ll be doing in the next minute. But all I know is, I’m trying.
Sometimes, I’m too hard on myself. Other times, I just stop thinking altogether. And sometimes, I can’t escape the voice in my head—the one that haunts me, tortures me, and says the worst things about me.

How do I deal with these thoughts now?

Honestly, it feels like I’ve wasted 25 days of January—while everyone else is out there working on their goals, I’m struggling to figure out what’s happening with me. I wasn’t this person before. It feels like I’m falling into a black hole, and I don’t know if I’ll ever climb back out.

But I know one thing for sure: the hand I need to pull me out of this black hole is mine. No one else can do it for me. It’s only me who can take myself out of this darkness. And that’s exactly what I’m working on—helping myself mentally, physically, and emotionally, in every way possible.

Why I’m Sharing This

Now you might be wondering, "Why is she sharing such low emotions here?"

Because I want to remind you that there are days like this for everyone. Days when we’re harsh on ourselves, when everything feels heavy, when we think we’ll never get out of it. But I want you to know: Life is filled with ebbs and flows. You have to embrace it all with an open heart.

Sometimes, it’s your moment to sit back, observe what’s not going according to plan, and make changes. Execute other plans and come back stronger. This too shall pass.

How I’m Helping Myself

Here’s what I’ve been doing to help myself, and I hope it helps you too:

1. Move your body.
Trust me, it’s underrated but powerful. Even a short walk makes you feel stronger.

2. Sit with your thoughts.

Write them down if you don’t feel like talking to anyone. And if you feel like it, burn that paper. I don’t know why, but it works for me.

3. Listen to music, dance, and sing out loud.

Cry, laugh, whatever you feel like doing.

4. Watch sunsets.

Nature has a way of grounding you.

5. Embrace spirituality.

Go to temples or places of peace if that resonates with you.

6. Explore mental health tools.

Meditate. Recently, I discovered Rishab Rikhiram Sharma’s sitar for mental health, and it’s been magical. Just listening to it makes me feel at peace.

7. Do small, mindful things.

Make your bed. Stand up, even if you don’t feel like it. Take small steps.

It’s okay if you’re not at peace with the world right now. Self-reflect, take your time, and know that it’s all going to be fine. Your good days are coming soon, but you have to help yourself and handle yourself with love, just like you would with a close friend, partner, or sibling.

This is your journey. Own it. This phase will teach you something about yourself, but only if you’re willing to learn from it.

I’ll wrap this up here, listening to the sitar on my Google Home, feeling at ease. I hope peace and love follow you wherever you go.

With love,
Isha☮